Here We Go Again....Again

Wednesday, April 22

So here we are, almost exactly six months after my last post. I can't believe it's been that long. What a bad blogger I am!!! Well, here is an attempt at rectifying that.

I'm not going to edit these as I go for the most part, so for those of you who have a tendancy to correct my grammar and spelling ::coughandrewarchercough:: don't...or risk being stabbed. I will cut you.

But I digress, I've given up on the cookies. The main reason? Money. I simply just couldn't afford it. While they worked for me and didn't create too much of a challenge as far as sticking with the plan, money rules the world and I just didn't have enough of it. So for the last few months, I've been kind of watching what I eat. Did a combo of low carb and low cal. Cut out the beer for the most part (which I do miss but still have when I go out occasionally). I honestly don't remember the last time I had fast food. Which I, surprisingly enough, don't miss. Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to go and get a quarter pounder and a large fry. Maybe some chicken nuggets too...but between my financial situation and the fact that I've been doing so well; I don't know. It really isn't worth it. I'd rather cook something that is bad for me and have it be even more delicious. Haha. I don't know if that makes sense at all.

So this week I've started something new. I work with a friend named Nayeli (if you were at my birthday party this year you may have met her). Her mom has started selling Herbalife. Not exactly cheap, but much more affordable than the cookies. So, I began my program a few days ago and wow. I know a lot of it is water weight, but I've already lost five pounds. How encouraging is that?! I have a shake for breakfast and lunch and then a reasonable dinner. It really isn't too shabby. I have some pills and things that i take as well, but thats about it. It's easy for me to do things like this during the day. I'm used to eating lunch at my desk every day anyway, so why not just have a shake and half a banana or some cucumber and be done with it? It still fills me up, and thats the important part, right?

The most exciting thing I have going on right now is that my best friend is about to have a baby. It's kind of odd how much it is affecting me. I didn't really expect that. Somehow, it makes me feel like I really am a grown up. In many ways, Nikki will always be 17 in my head (and if you know Nikki, you know that a 17 year old version of her was more together and mature than some people are at 30 - so don't take that the wrong way). But here she is, married to a man she loves more all the time, just bought their second house and is about to have her first little Kirkwood baby. I am so utterly proud of her and so amazed at what an accomplished adult she is already. A small part of me thought I would feel a level of jealousy...as horrible as that might sound. But I'm older than she is and have always wanted that life for myself. But now that Genevieve is almost here...i just want to cry with happiness every time I look at Nikki and see how perfect this is for her and Kevin and I can not WAIT to be one of the coolest aunts I could ever be to this little girl. It's so exciting. C'mon Evie! We're all ready to meet you. :)

I'm going to try and start blogging on here more. It's nice to have a few people that I have to update on my status. Keeps me from straying too far. So it may not be every day, but it will be as often as I can. Send me pink and blue thoughts about this diet I've started. I can't wait to see how far I can take it. :)

Quit tailgatin me you pasty teabag!
Lauren