Zombies and Vampires and Clowns, Oh My!

Day 6

I keep forgetting it is the week of Halloween. It is so hard to believe that we are four days away from November. Then, Thanksgiving will be here, then Christmas, then my birthday. Eek. It's already here again. I remember being a kid and summer seemed SO long, there was far too much space in between Christmases and an 8 - 3 o'clock day at school lasted forever. Now I sit and can't even imagine where the last few years have gone. Everything has just flown by at such speeds that I find it hard to focus sometimes. Life just goes by in a blur of color that you can't quite make out...the familiarity is there, but one day you wake up and you are standing in this entirely new place...not quite sure how you got there. I feel like I'm reaching out to try and grab on to as much as I possibly can and at times I can only sit and watch the stream of colors slip thru my fingers.

All of that being said, I love where I am right now. I love the people in my life. I love what I have an am accomplishing. And even with all that, I can't help but wonder how my life might be different 'if'. You know? So much in my past would have altered everything so drastically if I just would have taken the right fork instead of the left. I think in a lot of ways I chose the road less traveled, and for that I am proud. Life has its ups and downs respectively and I think I'm just excited to be on an up right now.

To the topic at hand...the ::gasp!:: diet. Today has been hard but only because I am so tired. I had a lot of trouble falling asleep last night. Thankfully, this is the first time it has happened since i began the diet. Generally, without a few drinks in my system, sleeping is a little bit of an issue. It hasn't been as of yet, until last night. I'm not sure exactly why I couldn't sleep but then, even when I did drift off, i dreamt that I was still having trouble sleeping. So, when I did wake up at about 4:30 this morning to realize I had been sleeping for a couple of hours...I felt as if I'd never been asleep at all. it did make me off on my cookie intake today. I always kind of associate eating with being sleepy so I tend to not eat anything if I'm trying to stay awake.

I also figured something else out. I can really get obsessive about the scale. I need to learn that just because I haven't lost another pound since yesterday....doesn't mean that it isn't working. Obviously it's working, I'm just being silly. It upset me for a total of about 4 minutes, then I realized how silly I was being and snapped out of it. My official weigh in is tomorrow night after work. I'm pretty stoked about it. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

The thing I'm probably most proud about right now is the fact that I went to a Halloween party last night and I didn't drink anything OR eat anything. I tasted the punch, only because Josh was raving about it, but that was it. Tuaca Lauren actually went to a party and didn't get drunk. Ta-daaaaaaa. It's my new parlour trick. It was pretty funny, I went to Josh's party....dressed as Josh. I even had 'KING' written on the inside of my fingers and my hair greased back. He got a kick out of it as did the other guys there. I was therefore included as a King for the rest of the night and toasted their jager shots with my water every time. mmmm.

P.S. being the only sober person at a party isn't necessarily how I want to spend my Monday nights, but if I were to do it with anyone, it would be that crowd. Love those peeps...as crazy as they might be.

I am out of all the good cookies. Tomorrow I'm going to have to figure out how to choke down the Garden Pizza as that is all I have left. She mentioned a little salsa so I'll try that first. Wish me luck.

Tonight I'm cooking dinner for Chris for the very first time. I'm excited. I only wish I would have marinated some veggies last night. Eh, I'll figure something delicious out. I generally do, if I do say so myself.

So tonight will be another lovely evening of Battlestar Galactica (I've already got chris to season three) and some homemade cooking. Nothing like science fiction telly and cajun baked fish...

Beam me up Scotty,
Lauren